My turn

Well the weather is beautiful here and the time so relaxing! Wish you were here.

Two of those statements are false. Stuff in Ballarat is pretty full on. These past couple of days in particular have been quite intense, and I'm just very glad that my self esteem is healthy! I've very much wanted to run away, go back to team and ignore life here. But I'm not going to do that - as attractive as it sounds. Please keep praying for my family.

On a positive note, I met one of the Ballarat girls, and while my intentions to actaully catch up with all the team are thwarted everytime so far, I plan to spend time with them at community nights... think taht will work ok. I've also been invited to a small group which consists of ppl in their 20s and 30's, at the church I thought that I mite go to. It is a fight for me to not get cranky at the way contemporary church is run, but I think its a fight I should fight within myself, and not be a snob! In return, I have already been offered a genuine chance to be a part of a group of young XNs, and I'm kind of getting excited about it. Community is totally under-rated, until ur removed from it. I miss it.

This is growing and changing me... as a team we set a goal to learn gracefulness as a pattern of life this year. I think I'm having an intensive practical course in it right now. For sure grace and love are the only weapons I have here that have any chance at effectivness.